He Keeps Me Singing..

(Mild Disclaimer): Sundays are always special days for Dave and I.. and church often makes a big impact our thoughts throughout the entire week, and longer. I know we're all made up of many different beliefs and truths around the world, but if you find Christian influenced updates offensive, I strongly encourage you to tune back in with us tomorrow instead, just in case.. because that's about all I feel my heart wanting to talk about tonight.

I'm not entirely sure, but I might have had my first anxiety attack ever last night. It wasn't a good night for me, to say the least. We got in bed around three this morning, and I'm not sure what happened after that. I started thinking, which is never good at bedtime. I started worrying about a handful of different things I've been thinking about lately. My heart was racing, and while I should have been sleepy and calm, I was wired, and felt as though I was seriously on the verge of flipping out. The worst part of all was that these things weren't anything new, just the same stressful things I should be used to obsessing about by now, but the sudden panic was very real, and very intense and it scared me. It was almost two hours later before I was still enough to fall asleep. The alarm for church came too soon.

Church was amazing this morning. We had another guest pastor, and he had a great message to share with us. We got to hear the story of Zacheaus, and I'm almost certain to have spelled that wrong, but I'm sure many of you know who I'm talking about. (I STILL know the words to that Sunday School song from decades ago, and him climbing up into that old Sycamore tree to better see the Lord).

We learned today that God reaches out to people one individual at a time, and that every soul is special to him.. and should be treated as such. It was a particularly great message for me to hear for as my world keeps turning and both good, and not so good people pass through it, I have to remember that everyone is worthy of Heaven, if they just choose to be, and that it's not my place to judge them.

Pastor Click also told us today that getting saved was a very personal choice, and that it had to be made for you and by you. You can't get into Heaven on anyones coat-tails. My mind started reeling a little bit, back to the day when Dave decided to get saved, and how we went back to the quiet rooms, and I listened in. I was there, and I witnessed. I believed, and I agreed.. but was I back there for me, or for Dave? I couldn't shake the feeling that I needed to be sure where I was headed after this life. I knew the doubt would plague me if I didn't, and that's just not something I want to go undone. I stopped and talked to Pastor Keith on the way out of the church, and told him I needed to be sure, for me. He's coming by the house one night this week so that I can get saved too, and for me this time. Pastor Click said he didn't need to change the world. He's satisfied just changing one life at a time. He definitely encouraged mine today.

There was a touring Ladies trio that performed today also, and I could have sat and listened to them all day long. Their voices were so sweet, and their songs carried some pretty powerful messages with them. They probably sang a dozen songs today, and I still wanted to hear more. The harmony was beautiful. For a donation, they were passing out CDs that featured themselves, as well as other ensembles from Crown College, and I brought one home to listen to. I wish I could figure out how to share one of the songs with you. They're all absolutely lovely.

The rest of the day has just been spent with the folks as they prepare for their big trip this week. I wrapped a couple dozen cookies to mail out this Tuesday. There are still three dozen on the table to wrap up and ribbon tomorrow, but they weren't quite ready to go into their bags yet. They've definitely been keeping me busy, but in a good way. Dave and I are off to catch up on a couple Bones and House episodes this evening, so we bid you goodnight. Thank you so much for joining us again tonight, and until next time, Much Love, Many Hugs, and Good Night to You All.