Another Ripple In The Pond..

I really do try to make a valiant attempt at getting through my day as bravely as I can. Some days are easy. Some days.. not so much. Now that we're back from our trip and we no longer have the supreme distraction that comes from four days of action packed activities.. Dave's mind, and my mind are starting to tick again. We've tried to put it behind us.. it's just one more thing, right? It's easy, in theory.. but a challenge to apply.

The night before we left for Tulsa, Dave got a call from his supervisor at Subaru, Greg. He urgently insisted that he talk directly to Dave, so I let him. Dave and I are connected in many more ways than just at the hip, and I knew it wasn't good news, even without having to hear the call myself. It was up to me to help pick up the pieces when it was over, and somehow sweep my own pieces aside for now. Dave was fired from his job this week, and he's not been quite the same since.

I can't even tell you how much this job has meant to Dave. Ever since he woke up and wanted to go back to work before he could even walk again.. ever since he asked to see the uniform, (that he hadn't even gotten to wear yet), to remind himself what he was working toward.. Subaru has been solidly in the number two slot behind Dave's motivation to just not give up. In one five minute phone call, he lost a little piece of himself. I can see it in his eyes.

I tried not to lose that dying little hope that our future could be normal again one day. It's silly, after all that Dave and I have been through to let so much rest on a job, but this wasn't just any job. Dave wanted it badly, and he got it. He was so proud to say he worked for Subaru. We desperately needed it and the security it gave us. We've never stopped believing that we'd get Dave back there again. One more thing has been taken away from us, and through no fault of our own. They say it's policy, and that it's not because of his injuries. I'm sure it's true.. but they've broken and changed every other policy for Dave, and I don't know why they had to stop now. I don't know what it'll do to Dave's spirit to not have Subaru in his life anymore. I don't know how we'll manage without the insurance.. especially on the very week we start the palatal lift prosthesis journey, (let alone the cost of eight prescriptions every month without assistance). I'm trying not to even think about it. It's.. just.. one.. more thing. I know that Dave and I have a breaking point. We have to be getting close.. but we're doing everything we possibly can to not let this be it.

I'm sure there's something else I meant to say. I'm certain there's something I've forgotten. I didn't even want to write about it in an update, because I know how people love to pick at me every time I have a complaint in life. I've promised to tell it like it is though.. and this is just one more set back in an entire ocean of set backs for Dave and I. I didn't want to leave this one out. I know it'll be monumental in how the rest of our future looks, and.. that's important to me. Thank You for reading, and until next time, Much Love, Many Hugs and Good Night to You All.